First of the month, I'm out in LA
Smoke in my lungs, stuck in a heatwave
Cold call from Ellie says it's not as special without me (ah)
Hearin' her voice crack split me in half
Kind of vacation you never get back
All 'cause a kid's little crush didn't last
Didn't plan for it ending so fast

But it's not about that

I've got a complex with growing up
I'm over-nostalgic, young, and dumb
Spendin' every August at your summer home
Don't even know what I'm scared of losin' most
It's heart-shaped castle honeymoons
It's somethin' I could run back to
But I can't, anymore
I'll be fine, keep what's yours

You got a girlfriend, so I keep my distance
Hold no resentment for you, but I do
For the chapter of life that I lived in
One that I wasn't ready to finish

Yeah, it's not about you

I've got a complex with growing up
I'm over-nostalgic, young, and dumb
Spendin' every August at your summer home (at your summer home)
Don't even know what I'm scared of losin' most
It's heart-shaped castle honeymoons
It's somethin' I could run back to
But I can't (but I can't), anymore (anymore)
I'll be fine (I'll be fine), keep what's yours (keep what's yours)

'Cause I want different things than I did before
A house on a river was big enough
At seventeen
Now it's small for me

I've got a complex with growing up
I'm over-nostalgic, young, and dumb
Spendin' every August at your summer home
At your summer home